Tuesday, December 21st, 2004
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5:03 pm
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Ok! So that's way too complicated. I'll just tell everyone my new name. It's much easier. Friend me if you want and I'll friend you back! =)
this_life_im_in
^^^that's my new name ;)
-Christy-
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Monday, December 20th, 2004
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5:16 pm
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I got a new journal. It was time for a change. To some of you, it's very obvious why. If you want to know my new name, leave me a comment and I'll be happy to tell you what it is and/or friend you!
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Saturday, December 18th, 2004
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10:51 pm
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Ok so I am a huge loser and I have absolutely nothing to do; therefore, I will fill out this survey to waste more time than I already have tonight. Sorry. Take it and like it.
1) What's the middle name of first person you slept with? Louis
2) What kind of underwear are you wearing, and what color are they? MY FAVORITE ONES! they're pink with flowers on them!
3) What song do you want played at your funeral? i don't really want to think about that..
4) What is the number of your sluttiest friend so that some of your single friends can get some action? none of my friends are really slutty and the ones that are slutty i don't really claim as friends
5) What would your last meal be before being executed? my dad's gumbo, red beans and rice, spaghetti, anything else he cooks that's good, and something from every fast food restaurant ever. i figure maybe i could just eat myself to death and not have to worry about being put to death.
6) Beatles or Stones? sorry to say that i don't really know either.
7) If you had to pick one person on earth to die, who would it be? That's too horrible to say out loud.
8) The person whose problems you wouldn't want to hear? people with fake problems or people i'm jealous of who complain about the things i'm jealous of.
9) What is the thing most important to you about the preferred sex? some one who accepts me for me and who is real.
10) Do you secretly hate some of your friends but are too nice to reject them? not really
11) If you could have any superpower, what would it be? move things without getting up and being able to change anything i wanted about myself or some one else.
12) Favorite hangover cure? there's no cure...they're a bitch. Some one tell me a cure and I will love you forever.
13) How many drinks does it take to get you drunk? More than when I started out. It's hard to tell though. I never keep track of how many drinks I've had.
14) Favorite Outkast lyric? foreva, foreva eva, foreva eva...
15) Hair color you most like someone you're dating to have? no real preference.
16) If you had to be blind or deaf, which would you choose? scentless, i'm not gonna even play the giving up vision or hearing game...that's too sucky.
17) Do you have any psychiatric problems? not thus far..
18) Siblings that should go to rehab? well since they both have......
19) Least favorite month? nothing good ever happens in august
20) Favorite hateful thing to do to somebody? well i do have alot of visions...
21) First movie you remember seeing as a kid? what's the movie with the rabbit...Who Framed Roger Rabbit....i don't remember the movie at all..i just remember that i saw it.
22) Favorite person in the whole world? my parents...most of the time. And Mr. Tuepker.
23) When's the last time you went on a date? Beginning of August..
24) Do you like violent movies or dirty movies? neither really..
25) Fall or spring? either...all the seasons are cool.
26) Person you most wish you hadn't made out with? hmm that first french guy that looked like cory matthews
27) If you are straight, what person of the same sex would you do it with? i'm not planning nor thinking about having sex with some one of the same sex...can't make me.
28) Where do you want to live when you are old and brittle? here...i love it here.
29) Who is the person you can count on the most? my dad, my friends, my family.
30) If you could date any celebrity, past or present, time and age are not a factor. Sean White. Is he a celebrity?
31) What books have you pretended to read? all of my summer reading books. however, I really don't even pretend to read them.
32) What's a word you'd use to describe your life? Changing, confusing, fast
33) What's your favorite drinking game? Captain Dickhead....that's really the only one I know.
34) What did you dream about last night? I dreamed my sister came in my room and told me to wake up and then like 5 minutes later she really did and I yelled at her for coming in twice in a row to yell at me...she was confused.
35) Favorite vice? cussing...is that a vice?
I'm bored.
Bye world.
current mood:  bored and tired
current music: Love Hurts (it's on VH1)
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Friday, December 17th, 2004
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4:19 pm - London bridges falling down
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Will my headache ever go away? It's neverending. I've had one for like a week and I'm not ok with it.
New classes today. They aren't bad. Resource Management is a joke. Shea's in there with me though so it's going to be fun! I thought it was going to be full of freshmen but there is only like 1. The rest are seniors. It shouldn't be bad. Graphic design looks like it should be fun too. Too bad I didn't have it last semester. Would have been pretty helpful for the deadlines if I knew stuff about Photoshop then.
I heard Jerson, Catherine, and Melissa came to A-Staff today. I'm so upset I missed them. I was going to come and hang out for a little while but my damned headache stopped me. I hope we get to hang out sometime over the holidays. I miss them so much!
So I told myself I wouldn't update for a while since I went crazy the other night. I just couldn't help myself. I'm addicted. I need to stop. I apologize to all of you who have me on your friends pages and get tired of seeing my face everytime you go to read other people's journals whose are actually worth reading.
This past week or so has been very beneficial. It's made me realize some really good things. I'm proud of myself. I am a strong person and I have changed. I may miss certain things but I definately don't want them back.
Ok so I was just thinking about my title. Is it supposed to be London bridges or London bridge is falling down. Is there such thing as the London Bridge. All those nursery rhymes always have other meanings that they never tell children. Just wondering. That song and that game has been in my head all day. Weird...
I love Christmas!!!
Bye world!!!!!!
current mood:  giddy
current music: TV Guide Channel
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Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
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9:06 pm - just for fun!
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9:00 pm - cat eye
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( here's your eye catherine )
Sorry it took me so long, and sorry if it doesn't work and you can't save it on your computer. If you can't, just leave me your email address and I'll just send it to you.
(I really just wanted an excuse to play and put pictures on my lj because it's the coolest thing ever.)
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8:22 pm - All over the club and stuff
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I thought I had updated today and didn't want to do it twice but I just realized that I didn't so now I'm updating once. Ok so that was the worst story I've told all day. My apologies.
I have so much energy right now and I'm not sure why. My head is tired though, like my eyes and stuff.
I'm procrastinating studying for my calculus exam. It is the very last thing I will ever have to do that is related to math for the rest of the year. I'm excited. I used to love math. That's all shot to hell now. I have a 79 in there right now and I'm REALLY excited. I figured that if I get a 50 on the exam then I'll have a 73 which is still passing and if i get 100 then I'll have an 83. I'll probably get somewhere in the middle of those two and be happy with a c. I hope I have a C in there but I'm not counting on it and I won't be upset if I don't. Just as long as I'm passing I'm happy.
All of my Christmas shopping is done. I'm excited for that. Now I just have to go shop for myself. That's a sad thing that I won't have any surprises but it's ok. At least I know I'm getting stuff I want. Depending on what I get, I might get new speakers for my car. I probably will get them anyway because I don't think they're going to be that expensive and this check should be really good. I deserve to spend a little money on myself every now and then.
We tried on prom dresses tonight. It made me excited about prom. I'm really scared about having a date. I don't think I will. It won't be anyone I really want to go with I'm sure. There are a select few people I could think of going with that I would be completely comfortable around and they're either gay or definately out of the picture. I'm sure I'll find someone. I realized that it is going to be essential that I lose weight for prom also. I looked like the biggest fat ass skank in all the dresses and it was not cute. I'm sure if I didn't lose weight I'd still be able to find a dress I liked and that looked ok on me. Since this is my one and only prom, I have to go ALL OUT! I have to be cute, classy, fun, beautiful, and crazy all in the same outfit since it's my only chance. I can pull it off. I want to wear really high heels.
I'm trying to debate whether or not I want to go to Panama for Spring Break. I really want to go because it'd be fun. I just dont' want to go to the beach and I don't want to dance. That will be a problem though, at least the dancing part anyway. All the girls that I'm going with LOVE to dance and since we're going to clubs there will be a lot of that. Everyone says to just get drunk and dance because then I won't care. Even if I'm drunk, I still won't know how to dance and I'll just look like a drunk fool who can't dance. I still have a little time to figure it out. I want Aco to go.
Everyone's in the mood to party this weekend. I haven't decided if I am or not. Depending on what there is to do, I might drink. If we need a driver I'll probably volunteer but that might not be necessary and in that case, I'll probably drink. I just need to learn how to not drink crazy amounts to where I do stupid ass shit and look like an idiot. I just need moderation.
I figured out who every one has for secret santa. I'm excited. We need to have our party (our friends, not a staff[well we need to do that too]).
I must go now because this entry is long and pointless enough. I apologize.
-Christy-
current mood: bouncy
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Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
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2:11 pm - I sat back down and had a beer and felt sorry for myself
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Today was my very last day of Annual Staff. I'm really sad. It hasn't quite sunk in yet. I really am going to miss the juniors and I'm glad that they will miss us. Second semester is really good for the juniors though. It gives all of them a chance to get to know each other better and makes it a lot better for next year.
Other than that, it was a pretty good day. The most exciting news of all.......
I have a C in calculus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not going to fail!!!! I'm SO excited. I still have to worry about the chapter 4 test grade and the exam grade but i know they won't pull it down that much. I'm so excited! YAY! and our group was the only group to make a 100 on the project. That really helped ALOT!
See, everything really does fall into place eventually. Or at least everything that sucks always tends to work itself out. Or get worked out.
I got an hour and a half of sleep last night, yet I'm not really tired at all. I just couldn't sleep. I almost just stayed up all night. I've always wanted to do that. I'm sure there's a really good reason why I haven't.
I'm sad because at around 1 I was going to go watch the meteor shower at the beach but I changed my mind because I was really tired and it was late but then I didn't even end up going to sleep until like 4 something so I could have gone. I walked outside for like 3 mins last night and saw two meteors. I wish I would have gone to the beach. That would have been so cool.
It was the biggest meteor shower of the year...in case you were wondering. I'm a loser. Take it and like it.
Today felt very final. It felt like the last day of school forever. I just had that feeling. I'm getting sad about graduating. Can you not??
We're buying the lunch lady cafeteria trays for Christmas. Me and Scott that is. She really loves our pretty fun trays and she talks about them every day so we're going to take another trip to Target this weekend and buy her some. She'll be touched. Hopefully anyway.
I'm very much in the Christmas spirit today. I want to go shopping. I want to get my brother something other than a smoothie king gift certificate. He's the only one I have left to buy for.
I hope I do what I keep telling myself. I hope I'm not stupid.
I got Clayton to wear a pink hat and scarf. I'm satisfied with life now. That made my day. HAHA.
current mood:  loved
current music: Let her cry- Hootie
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Monday, December 13th, 2004
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5:34 pm
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5 months from right now, we will be at graduation...
Am I the only person who doesn't have a tree yet? I'm all for Christmas spirit and everything, I just don't feel like going to get the tree. I think my mom and dad are going to get it tonight. I have almost all my presents so now I can wrap them and put them under the tree. I love wrapping presents. I should do that for money.
More people must update. I am too big of a compulsive lj checker for everyone to just stop updating. Please feed my addiction.
Only like 3 more days of Calculus. I'm the only person as of Friday that has dropped it. I completely failed the test today. Didn't even completely fill out but 5 of the 14 problems. I almost started crying. I hate Calculus. I hate failing more. It's inevitable at this point though. Oh well.
This also means that I only have like 3 more days of A Staff. Really only one because we won't have to come for exams. I'll be back 4th nine weeks. Kinda. I'll be Mrs. French's student helper and I'll probably just do A-Staff stuff the whole time. I wonder if the Juniors will miss us as much as we missed the Seniors last year. I don't think so. None of them have said anything about being sad that we're leaving. For like a month we were talking about how we didn't want them to leave. It's ok, we'll be back for senior night. If we have yearbooks by senior night...
I guess I'm gonna go work on pulling that Calculus grade up a little.
"I hope you're happy and completely lonely"
Bye world.
current mood:  groggy
current music: Beautiful Mistake- Ataris
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Sunday, December 12th, 2004
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6:50 pm
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Well, the week's finally over. It's somewhat less stressful but some things are still bothering me.
I don't think I have to work again until New Year's Eve. I keep getting really excited about it but then I remember that I still have over a week a of school left. It'll go by fast I'm sure.
So I've really been worried about Calculus lately. I know it's my own fault that I let my grade get this low and I waited til the last minute to try to change it. I was just thinking the other day and it hit me that if I fail Calculus, it will go on my transcript and will bring my GPA down ALOT. It just sucks that I've worked so hard for the past four years and then just let it all slip away in a couple of months. I'm not really sure how bad my grade will actually be or how bad it will pull my GPA down. I still have a few grades to do and I finally made up some of my makeup work. I know I'm going to fail the test tomorrow and I know I'll fail the exam. I just need to get 100 on the project. That will really help a lot. I'm sure I won't really care about it in a few years. I just still hope I get to graduate with the top of my class. I'm sure I won't. Oh well. At least I'm graduating..
I'm pretty much done with my christmas shopping. I bought my mom a lot of stuff and I like it. I usually only get her like one thing but she deserves more and since I have the money to buy her more then I will. I still have to figure out what to get Matt. I need to call Jessica and ask her. I'm sure she knows.
ACTs sucked. They really shouldn't make it that long. By the time I get to science, I really just don't care. That really kicked my ass. I feel pretty good about math and english for the most part. Reading sucks as always. I read two of the stories and just skimmed the other ones. Depending on my score, I might take it again. If I do, I'll study a lot more and actually use the book I paid $50 for. It just doesn't seem like people are supposed to study for the ACTs but I guess they are.
I've been feeling like shit about myself for the past couple of days. I really need to go on a diet. They weren't kidding when they say everyone gains weight working in banquets. I just realized it the other day. It really sucks and it'll only get worse if I don't do anything about it now.
I want to go to sleep. Blah.
current mood:  annoyed
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Thursday, December 9th, 2004
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12:19 am
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I hate feeling like a complainer. I don't really want to complain just more like talk to someone. I don't really feel like I have any one to talk to these days. I feel like everything I'd want to say, people wouldn't really want to hear. I don't want to be hypocritical or stupid or wrong or make any one else feel bad from what I say. Not that I really have anything important to talk about or that it would do any of those things if I did. I just feel alone. Maybe I'm just tired and completely worn about and just want this week to be over with. It's time like these when I just think things will never end. I guess they will. They always do.
I'm going to sleep.
Sorry.
Bye world.
P.S. My computer periodically makes chirping noises and I really have NO IDEA where they come from and it REALLY freaks me out. I'm going to need someone to witness this at some point to prove that I'm not a crazy.
current mood:  crazy tired
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Wednesday, December 8th, 2004
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3:08 pm - You wanna know more, more, more about me?
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Not really a whole lot going on in my life right now, so there's not really a whole lot to write about.
Days have been going by so fast but at the same time really slow. It seems that all I ever do is go to school and go to work and back to school. I hardly ever sleep, except in class. I'm getting really bad. I just CANNOT stay awake. It's like I'm narcaleptic (sp and maybe not even the right word). It's nice not having a 5th block even though I spend a lot of time at school then any way.
So I have the BEST A.S.S.S. EVER!!!!! They got me a scarf and a hat today! That could have been my final present! I'm really glad I have a good one because my one last year sucked ass so this year is making up for that! And I'm a good secret santa too so it all evens out. I hate when people say they aren't going to get their secret santa anything until their's gets them something. That's so mean. Don't make other people suffer just because you are!
So I made Christy's Mix 21 the other day and I cannot stop listening to it. I will listen to the same f ing songs OVER AND OVER again for like weeks before I get tired of them. It kinda annoys me but not to where I don't want to listen to them, just that I will listen to the same thing over and over again...that's confusing nevermind.
I need to go Christmas shopping.
I need to do my Calculus project.
I need to study for my make up quizzes.
I need to help more with the yearbook.
I need to stop thinking..
I need to study for English.
I need to read every story I've slept through.
I need to be strong.
I need to get ready for work!!!!
Bye!
current mood:  rushed
current music: Ryan Cabrera-True
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Monday, December 6th, 2004
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4:30 pm
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I need to go Christmas shopping. I need to know what I'm getting for people. I shall make a list:
Dad-pan or coffee pot
Mom-sweater or necklace
Matt-gift certificate to Smoothie King (what a freak!)
Lindsay-Elf and crochet book
A.S.S.S.-pillow and scarf
Secret Santa- already done pretty much but can't say it on here...=)
I think those are all the people I need to buy for. I really might go out to the mall tonight. Just to get it all over with. I'm glad I'll be getting some money on my next check. Just in time.
You will never be sorry enough to make up for what you did. Now you can live like I have...
I get a $25 gift card to Walmart for working there 6 months! HELL YES!
(haha I just realized that sounds like I work at Walmart...haha my bad {the Grand gives them out})
Ok so this weather was kinda cool a few days ago but now it's getting old. The sun needs to come out so we can take our picture!
We have to book Disney too!!!!!!!!!
Bye world.
current mood:  optimistic
current music: Daughters-John Mayer
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Sunday, December 5th, 2004
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1:51 am
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Thank you to every friend ever that commented! I was way excited to come home and have like 7 new journals to read! I'm such a loser...
13.5 hours today. at least 10 tomorrow. This paycheck better be good...
It really gets on my fucking nerves when people at work start to bitch and complain. Just shut up. Everyone is tired. Everyone has been on their feet the entire day. Everyone else has to work just as hard as you, if not harder! UGH! It's a job! DO IT!
I made $40 tonight. This guy gave me $30 for finding him two plastic cups with ice in them! Drunk people are great. The bartender gave me 10 for helping her. I tried to refuse but she wouldn't have it. That really helped boost my spirits.
My food tastes like soap.
It's really amazing what kind of food people will eat when they're hungry. About 7 people were gathered around a trashcan today eating meatballs that were about to be thrown away. (key word: ABOUT) We're disgusting.
It's been one of those thinking weeks, when you just think about everything. I'm not sure if that's good or bad.
I've been feeling really happy with myself lately. That makes me happy. Usually I feel like shit about myself. Things are looking up. I like it. I hope everything stays ok. There's potential that it won't though.
Someone massage my feet and take a shower for me. Thanks!!
Ok I must go to sleep, as I have to be back at work in 11 hours. Goodnight!
Bye world!
current mood:  exhausted
current music: What you waiting for?-Gwen Stephani
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Friday, December 3rd, 2004
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11:35 pm - What are you waiting for?
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This week started out kinda shitty but it worked itself out. I love my life sometimes.
Christmas in the Pass was fun. There really isn't all that much to do but it's fun just to get to spend time with friends and be all wintery. That's my favorite.
"Smiling's my favorite!"
Can we please all just stop growing up? Where did high school go?
Annual Staff was crazy today but I really loved it. It made me feel important and like I was actually contributing to the yearbook. It's going to be great.
Someone please teach me how LJ works. I need to learn.
I'm sleepy and cold.
Bye world.
current mood:  cold and sleepy
current music: You and I Both-Jason Mraz
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Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
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10:51 pm - You don't own me
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"The definition of insanity is doing something over and over again, expecting to get different results." -unknown
Please everyone go to Long Beach Lookout. It used to suck really hard but now it is yummy! Best meal I've had in a long time.
It's hard to hate assholes when they spontaneously do something nice:
"Christy, I was just thinking that I loved you so I thought I'd tell you." -Matt
So, I've realized tonight that I may possibly have the smallest train of thought EVER! It's the dyslexia..
Sleep is overrated.
current mood:  pessimistic
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5:23 pm - I GOT BANGS!!
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Wednesday, December 1st, 2004
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5:04 pm - You think your name is pass the joint
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I feel different. Like things just completely changed. It's a relief. But it's scary. I don't know what it means or what will come of it. It's gonna be ok.
Why is everyone in shitty moods lately? Me included. I think it's the weather. We all need to party or something. Go out and eat lots of cake. And laugh.
So I know for sure I'll be working on New Years Eve. I don't think it's going to be as bad as I thought. My mom said she found out that it's for about 750 people. I was excepting close to 2000. It's buffet, not plated. Good. I'll probably get off around 4 or so. I'll find out more this weekend.
Watch this year be the one year that we actually have something planned to do for New Years. And another New Years with no one to kiss at midnight. Maybe next year.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONATHAN!!!!
"I was naive, your love was like candy
artificially sweet, I was deceived by the wrapping
Got caught in your web and I learned how to bleed
I was prey in your bed and devoured completely
And it hurts my soul cause I can't let go
All these walls are caving in, I can't stop my sufferin'
I hate to show that I lost control
Cause I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from"
Life is hard.
Bye world.
current mood:  determined
current music: Failure's Not Flattering-NFG
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Tuesday, November 30th, 2004
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9:01 pm
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My mother fucking pants split in the middle of Walmart today... that sucked. I had to go buy new pants. And I was just noticing today that my pants were getting thin and that I need to be careful when I wear them. Guess I gotta buy some new jeans.
I've been looking through all my old pictures from when I was little. Very nostalgic. I love it. I looked so different when I was a little kid, yet I really do look the same. Growing up is weird.
I know change in inevitable but sometimes I just wish it wasn't.
Dear every one involved in our Secret Santa thing,
Everyone needs to make like a little list or something telling things they may want their secret santa to get them. Like CD's or clothes or accesories or candy or makeup or anything. We all know how it works. I know that I'm at a loss for things to get my secret santa and I'm sure some of ya'll are in the same boat. Also, we need to figure out when we're going to have our get together to give our gifts. We'll figure that out though, no hurry! Merry Christmas!
Love, Christy
I really need a new winter hat. Like a beanie. I need a black one or just a plain one that I could wear with just about anything. I like scarfs too. I like Yellowcard, you could buy me the Underdog EP or One for the Kids because I don't have real copies of those. There are a lot cd's I want but I can't think of any. I can't really think of anything else right now. If any of ya'll think of good questions to ask of things we may want, then ask! I like Friends to and if anyone can find VHS of the later seasons, either get it or tell me where I can get it.
Half of our last year is almost over. It's the beginning of the end. Well, kinda. Or the end of the beginning. It's bittersweet.
Bye world.
current mood:  disappointed
current music: Who Needs Shelter-Jason Mraz
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Monday, November 29th, 2004
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2:17 pm
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Today is one of those days that you just feel like shit about yourself. Physically and mentally.
I fell asleep in Calculus. It's hard to pay attention and act like I care when I know I'll be out of it in like 3 weeks.
I don't take enough pictures any more.
I really don't think I'm going to be drinking anymore. I just don't like it. It's not fun while I'm doing it. It's sure as hell not fun after I do it. What's the point? I do and say stupid shit that I regret. It's not worth it. I guess it's appeal just kinda faded. I'm not saying I'm not ever going to drink again but for the most part I'm gonna stay sober.
"I know I don't know you, but I want you so bad."-Maroon 5
It feels like one of those days where it should be raining and really cold and I should be listening to John Mayer and driving in my car aimlessly.
I feel like I owe an apology to the world. So...
Sorry.
-Christy-
current mood:  resentful
current music: White Houses-Vanessa Carlton
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